Missing Puzzle Piece

I remember doing a puzzle with C&F camping last season and it was nothing but cats of course LOL....But I remember working on it and there was an area in the bottom left corner that was black and needed that one last piece that connected the large cat in the centre of the puzzle.  I remember the happiness both of us felt when we found that piece and put it in.

Thinking about it I think that my Dr. Poon and other aspects of my life are missing that last little black puzzle piece.  Believe that there are 3 aspects of a human and they are mind, body and spirit/soul and when one isn't there, the body fails.  I know that my body is failing and so is my spirit since my mind isn't it.  My body can be put through the motions of Poon (body) and I am happy with the results (spirit) but I why don't I care about the whole darn lot?

So next week is that start or restructuring my puzzle so the last piece of my puzzle will be on Tuesday with Coco so hopefully it will all go well.to complete my tri-bond of life.  So since all weeks start on a Sunday I have decided that today is going to be a "let down my hair" day since I have had a stressful week with DoxyLover being holidays with some help from Ohio but then there was help from Norman and well let say she just added to the stress.  The DH and I are off to dinner and movie with passes we got a Christmas tonight so hopefully that will help the spirit.

So less than 24 hrs from now I will focusing on the carb detox of phase 1 and getting on the treadmill.  So be forewarned there might posts of wanting foods and aches from the treadmill :D

Wow only 16 minutes.....

Well today was a NSV (non scale victory) for me today......

I stepped back on the treadmill after some serious persistence of the DH and decided that a good half hour would be great for me to start the week off.  I have a routine of changing, pulling up the hair, get my shoes on, turn on the DM video and then the treadmill.  Sounds like a plan right? But one important detail I forgot.....to stretch.  Now Ohio has warned me about this when we are chatting at work but I seemed to have left this detail out this afternoon.  

Well I was chugging along at a brisk walk of 4.0 mph WOHOO (the NSV) since I could do 3.8 in then past a 4% incline!!!!!!!!!!!!  And that is when it hit.  16 minutes into my brisk walk I had to stop because of shin splints.  I guess these are better than the cramped toes that Miss Poonpalooza gets when she runs.  She has been running for a year and this is what I get to look forward to?  I better stop now :D

For those of you that don't know, a shin splint is like a really bad muscle cramp in the front of your shin and I have posted a picture of where they hit on me.

So I guess I will need to remember to stretch before and after getting on the treadmill, but for the here and now I will limp a bit for the rest of the day with some ice on it.

Shortest month of the Year

I know it has been a month but at least I picked the shortest month of the year ha ha……..

Since the end of January I have been really feeling like I have only been going through the motions of everyday.  I was working Super Bowl weekend at the other job and it was really quiet.  I remember thinking that the Grey Cup had more action than the Super Bowl.  I guess that is what happens when you live in Canada.

There was a Poon Group meeting about mid-February and Ms. Poonpalooza herself was stopping in too!  It was a pot luck that we were to make our favorite dish, so I happily made my chicken pesto and it got rave reviews.  It was interesting to see how many of us will cook and how many rely on the store bought stuff from the store attached to the Clinic.  Leigh mentioned herself that she is more of a home cook and the store rarely got a visit from her. 

 

 

 

I had a brutal cold later in February too.  I ended up sleeping most of Family Day since I was wiped!  I had no interest in food and ended up working a short shift at the 2^nd job and just went home.  I went into the office on the Tuesday just because I knew that my biggest client had payrolls that needed to be processed and he only likes the fact that I do them.  So I go them done and as much as I could so that I could take Wednesday off and I just slept then too.  I did eventually haul myself out of bed to go visit Dr. Marchie to find I down 3 pounds but it was all water.  I think it was all my sneezing LOL

February was a pretty sullen month since I had lost all interest in eating right and the treadmill.  Sullen isn't the right word....more like "I don't give a Flying Fig Newton about anything" so  I decided that on my drive into the office that something had to be done.  So I thought it was time to see a counsellor called Sanka again, who I haven’t seen in many.  I would have to say at least 5 years so I gave her a call.  I found out that she was still at the same location but she had increased her fees and my office would only cover $300 or roughly 2 visits.  So the DH and I were talking and he has an Employee Assistance Program (EAP) that sets you up with a counsellor and they pay for 12 visits.  So since I figured I was going to need to rehash everything to Sanka, I might was well do the same with this one and I will call her Coco.

Why do I need one?  Well I still am half-hearted about Poon, the treadmill is becoming more a walk/jaunt than a running tool and since I haven’t done the first 2, the diabetes thing is still in the back of mind and that is where it has stayed.  I haven’t had the “a-ha” moment yet to wake me up about it.  I have been just going from point A to point B and back again in auto pilot.  The DH has asked what he can do to make me happy again and I honestly don’t know.

I am starting to feel a little motivated, just for the fact that my list of friends are doing things that make me feel like that I have been “left behind” and I feel like showing them wrong.  What I mean by this, is that one has left Poon for WW, I have a good friend who is getting GBP in a few weeks, I found out another on has had the Lapband done and another who might not ever get well enough.  So I feel like I want to stay on Poon just to show that it can be done.  But I don’t have the get up and go to do anything about it.

That brings us to this week and I have my usual 3 shifts at the other job where food is going to be a temptation, 2 St. Patrick Day parties and I am finally going to get see Coco on the 26^th. I will post pics of all of us in green at the office……..

Where do I go????

First off I need to apologise to the DH since I have been a little reclusive recently and keeping quiet and deep in thought about what Dr. Ferguason said at my last visit on the 10th and I have been shrugging off the treadmill.
 

I am really torn in my health and not sure which direction to take it. 

Here it is……I have been told that I have to lose weight in the next 3 months because my sugars have finally reached the diabetic stage on my last blood work. Now Dr Poon’s diet does help with this since I haven’t been at these levels before and I have been skirting on the edge for a few years. 

My Dad was the last one in his family to be diagnosed (my granddad, my grandma, Uncle George, Aunt Jessie, Uncle Ronnie and Dad) with the injectable diabetes and I am being to think that it is inevitable.  My grandmother on my Mom's side was over weight (they use to joke that she was 4 foot 8 high and 4 foot 8 around) and the only health issue they have ever had was Grandad Talbot having a heart attack after shovelling the snow when he fell asleep on the couch afterwards.

So my dilemma is, do give up Poon and just accept the fact I am diabetic and go on the meds and enjoy the size that I am, or keep on Poon to lose the weight and take the chances of not being diabetic?

What a year!

Well it is my b-day and I am turning 29 again LOL….In reflection over the past year things have turned out for the better.

I have been able to shed 25+ pounds with Dr. Poon and still working at it.  I am glad to lose it slowly and it makes me realise how easy it is to put back on.  My good cholesterol is doing great and my bad cholesterol has dropped but not enough to get me out of the red zone but dropping.  My sugars have reached into the red zone which has my family doctor concerned since Dad was last one on his side to be diagnosed with Diabetes.   We have been keeping an eye on my sugars in case mine ever elevated for years.  So I have been told that I have 3 months to get stuff under control again and I think that I will need to talk to Dr Marchie at the clinic to see if I need to make any adjustments to my Phase 1.  I do admit that I still suffer from BLT’s but I am going to have to cut those out for sure!  I actually used a horse reference when it came to the difference between Glo’s hubby and me.  I referred myself as an easy keeper and her hubby as a hard keeper…..for those of you that don’t know an easy keeper, easy doer or (British English) good doer is a livestock animal that can live on relatively little food. The opposite of an easy keeper is a hard keeper (poor doer), an animal that is prone to be too thin and has difficulty maintaining adequate weight.

I have celebrated a year at work and it has been just as great when I first started today…There has been a few changes and I think that it might all just work out in the wash.  I now have DoxyLover in Ohio’s old spot and Nikki just loves it.  I think I had enough of Curly T sighing and simply saying “Debbie…..” and expecting me to move Nik.  The office has getting full with new hires.  I am just concerned with the new DoO that she might be a money grubber and really doesn’t take the client’s feelings at heart.  She expects us to process pay days earlier than before the pay date and I am sure that these small businesses don’t have that kind of money floating around.  I am still going to keep the mindset of helping out the “little guy” where I can since we have been in business for 25 years we must be doing something right. 

I was looking for pics from a year ago and then recently but IO honestly didn’t find any that showed any real change.  So you will just have to enjoy Nik’s Christmas photo in front of my fireplace at work that I made for the desk decorating contest J

Stress...what stress?

Well things around here have started to get nuts. 

Work had a Christmas do at the golf course and I had a big bout of disassociation and I am glad that DoxyLover knows enough about me to catch it.  Now don't go blaming Nik for falling down on the job, she was working and I found it frustrating and stuffed cotton in her ears.  I was concerned about her noise level and didn't acknowledge it for me.  DUH.........

Since this was a surprise to some of us, I was asked to still plan the pot luck, desk decorating and a White Elephant gift exchange.  So I finally go around to decorating my desk on Tuesday and will be finishing it on Wednesday for a Thursday contest.

I am lucky that the DH is going to grab the groceries for my contribution for the pot luck since I have a specialist appointment on Thursday morning regarding my side so I am going to have to stay late to get my work done.

Also the club is having its Christmas do in the 15th, so I am going to finish organising that and cook the turkey and the stuff for aver a dozen people.  I am just glad that everyone else is contributing a side to with it so I can just focus on what I need.

Mom and the little brother is coming over on the 22nd for our Christmas since at the time it was planned, mom was in southern Ontario and it would have been easier for to come over.  Things have changed and she was laid off from the job and she went back up to Elliot Lake.  So now I am not sure if she is going to take the ends tables for an apartment she doesn't need.  By brother hasn't replied to my emails so I guess I am just going to do it the old fashioned way and use the phone LOL.

Speaking of family, Dad needs surgery to remove a kidney that has a growth.  He has a new girlfriend and yet again I have been told that "she is the one" but I have heard this numerous times and they honestly remind me of lost cats that show up on his doorstep and he takes them in.  Well the DH and I super busy this time with him being the CS of SFI and Christmas parties.  When the GF asked if she could stay at our place we were hesitant since we met her twice before but we ran with it.  Needless to say she emailed me this morning with a bunch of BS saying that my plans are more important than my dad blah blah........apparently we are going to discuss this when Dad recovers.  At this point I have decided that this isn't the first time lines have been drawn in the sand with my dad so what is a few more years? 

I happy to say that the shifts at the 2nd job have been cut back to 3 night and I am soooo glad of that!  I think if I had to deal with that I would have gone mad!  Last week I had 5 shift and I do admit the money was good since I got a good chunk of the DH shopping gone but my sanity needed saving and so did my marriage LOL

So hopefully I don't have a carb overload in the next few weeks and I will get through this!!!!!

What a weekend!

Friday night we were hit with some snow that wasn’t there when we parked our cars in the morning……So I had a 3 hour drive to get home (please not Gilligan’s Island jokes) that normally is about 45 minutes.  Once I was north of Steeles (a major road but not quite highway) there was no snow!  I contribute that to the lake that is near work and it was blowing in from there. 

Saturday we headed to Bufflo NY for a holiday party.  I was glad that I went since I was able to meet up with MeeMaw and she is looking good.  She has had LapBand surgery and is down 131 pounds.  I honestly didn’t think that it was such a big number on such a little body frame!  She notice my weight loss too so we decided to pose for a photo together and we also decided that when both of us are in Dallas together in August we are going to have a day together and then wow everyone with what we have done J  We compared foods and lifestyles and what she was saying seems really constrictive but then some folks would say the same about Dr. Poon.  Both of us enjoyed our chicken with green salad for supper and our little chat.  It must be a weight loss thing to put our hands on our hips.......

 

 

Sunday we decided to put up the Christmas tree and I do admit I was rushing to get it up since Topper’s called and they needed me early and I was hoping to get on the treadmill.  I managed to drop last year’s Eeyore ornament from Dave and I broke off his ear.  L  In a weird way I was glad that it was one of mine and not one of Dave’s Star Trek ornaments. 

I went looking on the internet for a pic of the one I dropped and with no avail I can’t find it!  I guess I better keep a close eye on this ornament LOL but this is the tree completely decorated.