Where do I go????

First off I need to apologise to the DH since I have been a little reclusive recently and keeping quiet and deep in thought about what Dr. Ferguason said at my last visit on the 10th and I have been shrugging off the treadmill.
 

I am really torn in my health and not sure which direction to take it. 

Here it is……I have been told that I have to lose weight in the next 3 months because my sugars have finally reached the diabetic stage on my last blood work. Now Dr Poon’s diet does help with this since I haven’t been at these levels before and I have been skirting on the edge for a few years. 

My Dad was the last one in his family to be diagnosed (my granddad, my grandma, Uncle George, Aunt Jessie, Uncle Ronnie and Dad) with the injectable diabetes and I am being to think that it is inevitable.  My grandmother on my Mom's side was over weight (they use to joke that she was 4 foot 8 high and 4 foot 8 around) and the only health issue they have ever had was Grandad Talbot having a heart attack after shovelling the snow when he fell asleep on the couch afterwards.

So my dilemma is, do give up Poon and just accept the fact I am diabetic and go on the meds and enjoy the size that I am, or keep on Poon to lose the weight and take the chances of not being diabetic?

What a year!

Well it is my b-day and I am turning 29 again LOL….In reflection over the past year things have turned out for the better.

I have been able to shed 25+ pounds with Dr. Poon and still working at it.  I am glad to lose it slowly and it makes me realise how easy it is to put back on.  My good cholesterol is doing great and my bad cholesterol has dropped but not enough to get me out of the red zone but dropping.  My sugars have reached into the red zone which has my family doctor concerned since Dad was last one on his side to be diagnosed with Diabetes.   We have been keeping an eye on my sugars in case mine ever elevated for years.  So I have been told that I have 3 months to get stuff under control again and I think that I will need to talk to Dr Marchie at the clinic to see if I need to make any adjustments to my Phase 1.  I do admit that I still suffer from BLT’s but I am going to have to cut those out for sure!  I actually used a horse reference when it came to the difference between Glo’s hubby and me.  I referred myself as an easy keeper and her hubby as a hard keeper…..for those of you that don’t know an easy keeper, easy doer or (British English) good doer is a livestock animal that can live on relatively little food. The opposite of an easy keeper is a hard keeper (poor doer), an animal that is prone to be too thin and has difficulty maintaining adequate weight.

I have celebrated a year at work and it has been just as great when I first started today…There has been a few changes and I think that it might all just work out in the wash.  I now have DoxyLover in Ohio’s old spot and Nikki just loves it.  I think I had enough of Curly T sighing and simply saying “Debbie…..” and expecting me to move Nik.  The office has getting full with new hires.  I am just concerned with the new DoO that she might be a money grubber and really doesn’t take the client’s feelings at heart.  She expects us to process pay days earlier than before the pay date and I am sure that these small businesses don’t have that kind of money floating around.  I am still going to keep the mindset of helping out the “little guy” where I can since we have been in business for 25 years we must be doing something right. 

I was looking for pics from a year ago and then recently but IO honestly didn’t find any that showed any real change.  So you will just have to enjoy Nik’s Christmas photo in front of my fireplace at work that I made for the desk decorating contest J

Stress...what stress?

Well things around here have started to get nuts. 

Work had a Christmas do at the golf course and I had a big bout of disassociation and I am glad that DoxyLover knows enough about me to catch it.  Now don't go blaming Nik for falling down on the job, she was working and I found it frustrating and stuffed cotton in her ears.  I was concerned about her noise level and didn't acknowledge it for me.  DUH.........

Since this was a surprise to some of us, I was asked to still plan the pot luck, desk decorating and a White Elephant gift exchange.  So I finally go around to decorating my desk on Tuesday and will be finishing it on Wednesday for a Thursday contest.

I am lucky that the DH is going to grab the groceries for my contribution for the pot luck since I have a specialist appointment on Thursday morning regarding my side so I am going to have to stay late to get my work done.

Also the club is having its Christmas do in the 15th, so I am going to finish organising that and cook the turkey and the stuff for aver a dozen people.  I am just glad that everyone else is contributing a side to with it so I can just focus on what I need.

Mom and the little brother is coming over on the 22nd for our Christmas since at the time it was planned, mom was in southern Ontario and it would have been easier for to come over.  Things have changed and she was laid off from the job and she went back up to Elliot Lake.  So now I am not sure if she is going to take the ends tables for an apartment she doesn't need.  By brother hasn't replied to my emails so I guess I am just going to do it the old fashioned way and use the phone LOL.

Speaking of family, Dad needs surgery to remove a kidney that has a growth.  He has a new girlfriend and yet again I have been told that "she is the one" but I have heard this numerous times and they honestly remind me of lost cats that show up on his doorstep and he takes them in.  Well the DH and I super busy this time with him being the CS of SFI and Christmas parties.  When the GF asked if she could stay at our place we were hesitant since we met her twice before but we ran with it.  Needless to say she emailed me this morning with a bunch of BS saying that my plans are more important than my dad blah blah........apparently we are going to discuss this when Dad recovers.  At this point I have decided that this isn't the first time lines have been drawn in the sand with my dad so what is a few more years? 

I happy to say that the shifts at the 2nd job have been cut back to 3 night and I am soooo glad of that!  I think if I had to deal with that I would have gone mad!  Last week I had 5 shift and I do admit the money was good since I got a good chunk of the DH shopping gone but my sanity needed saving and so did my marriage LOL

So hopefully I don't have a carb overload in the next few weeks and I will get through this!!!!!

What a weekend!

Friday night we were hit with some snow that wasn’t there when we parked our cars in the morning……So I had a 3 hour drive to get home (please not Gilligan’s Island jokes) that normally is about 45 minutes.  Once I was north of Steeles (a major road but not quite highway) there was no snow!  I contribute that to the lake that is near work and it was blowing in from there. 

Saturday we headed to Bufflo NY for a holiday party.  I was glad that I went since I was able to meet up with MeeMaw and she is looking good.  She has had LapBand surgery and is down 131 pounds.  I honestly didn’t think that it was such a big number on such a little body frame!  She notice my weight loss too so we decided to pose for a photo together and we also decided that when both of us are in Dallas together in August we are going to have a day together and then wow everyone with what we have done J  We compared foods and lifestyles and what she was saying seems really constrictive but then some folks would say the same about Dr. Poon.  Both of us enjoyed our chicken with green salad for supper and our little chat.  It must be a weight loss thing to put our hands on our hips.......

 

 

Sunday we decided to put up the Christmas tree and I do admit I was rushing to get it up since Topper’s called and they needed me early and I was hoping to get on the treadmill.  I managed to drop last year’s Eeyore ornament from Dave and I broke off his ear.  L  In a weird way I was glad that it was one of mine and not one of Dave’s Star Trek ornaments. 

I went looking on the internet for a pic of the one I dropped and with no avail I can’t find it!  I guess I better keep a close eye on this ornament LOL but this is the tree completely decorated.

 

 

"Get out of jail free"

Dr. Poon post recently in his blog the following post:

“If you have to cheat, cheat small”

by Dr. Pat Poon on November 29, 2012

  

This is one of my sayings.

Holidays are fast approaching and there will be lots of eating opportunities. On the Phase Three handout there is a list of foods that are banned. They are banned because they has either too much sugar, starch, fat and/or salt. I do not necessarily mean that you can never taste it again in your life; but rather, do not eat the whole serving of those products at once. If you wish to taste, have a bite or two and stop. I’ve had many people tell me that they just had a “small” piece of the cake during the party, and subsequently gained weight. How do you define small? A single bite or spoonful is a small piece to me.

Most of our patients have medical issues related to their weight, so remember another saying of mine, “Disease does not take holidays.”

In my mind this is like a get out of jail free card from Monopoly.

This is giving me permission for the BLT's that posted about the other day.  I read it as "I can take a whole bunch of little bites and it won't matter."  I also reminds me of a poster I saw about calories that said stuff like a broken cookie has no calories since the all leak out or if you share a dessert it is half the calories etc.

I am just concerned that if I start thinking like this, subconsciously the nibbles will turn into huge, ugly cheek puffing bites and I would have been better off ordering one for myself and taking the time to eat a small mouthful.

So I am not going travel down this path, an just stick to my all or nothing mantra right now.

 

I have to admit it has been hard……

Since corporate has taken over I have been trying to the “team player" and helping out where I could so that I will be memorable when it comes the time for them to sell it again.  This means I have been working off my butt (figuratively) since I have picked up a 4^th shift and the kitchen staff has taken some of the roles I use to do around the driver’s area.   I have to say that the money has been okay since I have been able to pay for most of the treadmill mill and I still need $100 to cover it and I have been able to pay for my gas in cash.  Now I am saving up for some new tires, but I think that they will take precedence over the last little bit for my treadmill. 

I also have been struggling again with passing all the fast food joints coming and going from the day job.  I can be sitting at a set of lights and I will notice people eating in their cars.  Things can range from an apple to full blown burgers and pop.  That will usually start my mind turning on what I want to eat for supper.  And of course the power of suggestion kicks in as I am driving past a location but I am usually running late and need to get Nikki home before my shift starts. 

Also being at the store for 5 ½ hours at a time, and you are able to take a sit down makes for idle hands and idle mouth.  I am afraid that I have started a trend of BLT’s (bites, licks and tastes) instead of eating.   But I have noticed that a series of BLT’s might be a cause for more food consumption.  So I need to slow down on my eating and really enjoy what I am eating.  I have been in a rush and I am eating for the sake of eating.  I have been eating Poon-friendly stuff….but not enjoying it. 

I was at a brunch for C’s 50^th on Sunday and I ordered the steak and 3 poached eggs and the steak and mushrooms on it.  I was too busy with chatting and worrying about my time line in getting back, I honestly can’t tell you if the steak was good or not.  But I do remember watching C enjoy her chocolate chip pancakes since she is putting Poon on hold until after her surgery and her sister STR enjoying hash browns and hash.  The meal was a blur but I think I ate LOL. 

This morning I took the bulls by the horns and decided that I had packed a sufficient amount of food for today that there was no need to stop at Tim’s for an egg white and a tea, or to stop at McD’s for an egg and ham with a diet coke.  I will admit it took all I could to keep on the straight and narrow, but I needed to start again. 

The weather was Nikki friendly in Barrie so she was having her first romp of the season LOL

 

 

 

Gotta push through.......

No more excuses!!!!!!

I have a free night to spend it with the DH and what I am going to do???????  I was thinking to myself that I should take the time to relax with him since we are like 2 ships in the night recently between my other job, feeling drained of energy and he is now part of the on-call rotation for his work.

I also have had an "meh" day of eating and what they say is true....Garbage in...garbage out. I have felt great all morning with my egg whites and water in me and then I had an okay build my own salad from Longo's with Miss A and I picked up few things to make for supper and then I discovered sugar free wafers from Vortmans......I have had a couple of these wafers this afternoon to treat myself and now I feel like I am going to drift off for a nap!

 

I have noticed on the FB page that the newbies will go nuts on the store/packaged stuff and then complain about energy levels being low.  I guess the Daddy Poon smarts have struck again! LOL

The more I think about the more I think that I can't come up with excuses not to get on the treadmill.  That was the whole reason for getting it was not to have excuses.  I am sure I could have used the weather, the wind or even a crack in the sidewalk as an excuse not to leave the house.

So I am going to get a start on the supper and while it is in the oven for 30 minutes I plan on taking my 20 minutes on the treadmill.  It is only 20 minutes right?  I am sure that the DH can find some emails to reply to while I am gone LOL